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dee. 17.
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╰☆╰☆╰☆ How I became a Taemint ;╰☆╰☆╰☆

Where do I start ? Ah , the History . To be honest, Taemin wasn’t my bias at all when I first became a Shawol . I never really noticed him that much . I was a blinger , a very big blinger . but after October 26 , 2010 .. My heart was in deep despair . I didn’t know what to do , my whole world just seemed to crumble after hearing the news . (yes that’s how dedicated I am of being a blinger ) Some fans will probably think of me as a Delusional fangirl , crying over someone that doesn’t even know that you exist , crying over someone that has swarms of fangirls who’s thousand times prettier than she is . but I just can’t help that you know? SHINee and Jonghyun just really became a part of me that I can’t live a day without seeing them , even just in pictures . I was doing my daily-routine , which is Read KPOP secrets and then scroll through Allkpop until  I reach where I stopped the last time I read . When I saw the title , I froze . My heart started beating faster and without knowing my hands was shaking . I clicked the big sentence in bold letters , "SHINee’s Jonghyun and Shin Se Kyung confirmed to be dating" . I’m the emotional type , I’m very sensitive and a small thing can make me cry . I read through the whole page. My heart felt heavy . then a tear just dropped , I felt angry at myself. "Why are you crying ? Why are you crying over someone who doesn’t know you? Who’s probably never gonna know you?Stop crying!!" the questions were repeating in my head. but I just couldn’t stop myself from tearing. I called my bestfriend that night  and I told her about it , about how I felt . She told me she knew about it and about how I feel , Just cry it out. she told me . She also experienced the same thing for Super Junior’s Kyuhyun. I felt like an idiot , crying . I was angry at Jonghyun, and the same time angry at myself . I was angry at Jonghyun for having a girlfriend , but I was angry at myself for being angry at Jonghyun because I knew I can’t do anything about it. He’s an idol,but He’s also human . and even if Jonghyun sees me, the chances of him going all “Hey,you’re pretty .. can I have your number ? ” is 0.0000000001/20000000000000000000000 . I’m not pretty like other girls , I’m not skinny . My skin color isn’t fair . After crying for 1 hour and 30minutes ,. I made a decision which probably made me a very bad blinger  . I changed biases because of that incident , I tore of Jonghyun’s Sticker on my EZ-Link Card and replaced Taemin’s sticker [ My Shawol friends and I made a pact that our biases will stay on our ez-link sticker , and if we take it out and change it, it officially means that you’ve changed biases ]  . Then I started following more Taemin blogs , [Taepout , -bananamilk118 are my favorite taemin blogs , follow them for more taemintiness ] . You could say I “forced” myself into being a taemint , but now ..I’m not anymore . I’m really a real Taemint now. After seeing how great Taemin is , how wonderful and graceful he looks like whenever he’s dancing , and how hard he tries just to show us a wonderful performance ..I just fell inlove with him more. I still love you  Jonghyun , You’re still going to be remembered in my heart and will forever have a special place in here . SHINee too . I hope you guys succeed on every thing you do. I’ll be a shawol till I die. I promise .

[Before you read,Please clear your minds with any hate. Have a cup of tea or something ]

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